[You know that moment when you know you're being stupid and dumb and feeding your own insecurities, but you're internally twisting yourself into a pretzel and can't seem to stop? That moment when everything That One Person does is an attack, every word hiding an irrational hurt? This is one of those moments.
In Leon's head right now, very paraphrased:
You are my problem, you and your pokemon and the way you push me back and won't validate my need to take care of you and the way you systematically call me out on my bullshit instead of letting me just brood it out in peace which always worked for me before when I didn't have to answer to anyone because I was in-fucking-charge, did as I pleased, and was good at it so no one gave a shit if I had Issues-with-a-capital-I on the side! And I'm the problem because I am having a million goddamn trust issues because of this place and the newness of This Thing we're doing and I really, really want to get over it but I can't and I get frustrated because I can't and I inevitably disappoint you and I hate letting you--anyone--down and it just makes me more pissed off when I see my own failings.
Bag of sunshine, this man.
He kind of pauses, her question ringing in his ears.]
Just...forget I said anything.
[Denial is not, contrary to popular belief, merely a river in Egypt. Let's sweep things under the rug, this is a winning solution.]
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Date: 2012-02-16 04:07 pm (UTC)In Leon's head right now, very paraphrased:
You are my problem, you and your pokemon and the way you push me back and won't validate my need to take care of you and the way you systematically call me out on my bullshit instead of letting me just brood it out in peace which always worked for me before when I didn't have to answer to anyone because I was in-fucking-charge, did as I pleased, and was good at it so no one gave a shit if I had Issues-with-a-capital-I on the side! And I'm the problem because I am having a million goddamn trust issues because of this place and the newness of This Thing we're doing and I really, really want to get over it but I can't and I get frustrated because I can't and I inevitably disappoint you and I hate letting you--anyone--down and it just makes me more pissed off when I see my own failings.
Bag of sunshine, this man.
He kind of pauses, her question ringing in his ears.]
Just...forget I said anything.
[Denial is not, contrary to popular belief, merely a river in Egypt. Let's sweep things under the rug, this is a winning solution.]